I am feeling better today I made it through yesterday. The morning was hard for me and the afternoon I felt like crying all day and did some. But, then I went to the library and got some books. I was reading those and that helped me to take my mind off of it. I exercised and meditated. I prayed and went to a meeting. By the end of the day I felt really good and realized I need to do that more often to keep my sanity. I never got a call from my boyfriend which was depressing at first and I though… Continue

I woke up early this morning thinking about my boyfriend. I am really worried about him and myself for that matter. I am resentful that his counselor lied to me and told me he could call me when he can't. He didn't even know who I was talking about. They put him on suicide watch which I feel guilty about and I can relate to feeling that way when he left me. A part of me knows yes he is trying to make me feel guilty but I already feel bad. I have resentments that I continue working for my aunt ev… Continue

I am feeling better tonight. I thought of HALT. And realizes I was hungry, tired, and angry. I got something to eat and rested a bit. I realize that it is so important what I see and feel about myself on the inside. I usually am so concerned about the outside. But, I also need to like what is inside of me. I am still learning to like myself on the outside and inside. I have my yucky moments like today. I watched the movie about Georgia O'Keeffe and I related to what her life was like with her hu… Continue

Today was such a hectic day for me. First I mailed the break up/goodbye letter to my boyfriend. I just told him the truth. It hurt me when he through this girl in my face and if she is there for him then that's great but I don't deserve to be treated this way. I truly believe if it was between keeping her friendship or our relationship he would choose there friendship. It seems like that's what is already happening. I said if he didn't want to live with me or marry me that was fine but I am tire… Continue

My three day weekend is over. I am not looking forward to getting back to the daily grind. I always feel like there is so much to do and so little time to get it all done. Today I've been in a kind of melancholy state I've had a lot on my mind these past few days. I still have studying to do and then I'm going to go to bed and get on with the rest of my week. I'm just going to try to make the best of it. I just watched the mentalist about being hypnotized. It was actually interesting. I like the… Continue